Organized C H A O S
Welcome to Organized Chaos, a blog with all of my random, dumb, pointless thoughts. Here you can get the satisfaction that maybe your life is 100% better. I named it "Organized Chaos" because it pretty much explains my life. Nothing is in order, but it always seems to organize itself into something workable. Also, I tend to get angry easily, so expect a lot of rants! :3


A B O U T Me
Alright, so what do you want to know about me? Well my first name is Keenan. Irish Gaelic for little ancient one, a young ruler. I'm offically 19 years of age, which in Canada or atleast in my province is legal drinking age. WOOT. I know, not really the exciting. I don't really get mad at anyone, in fact, only one of my friends has ever seen me mad and refuses to let me be mad again. So it must be bad, but I don't remember it. Weird? See I get even, no made or sad, I make people suffer ten times worse if not more. K, so remember that :3 ! I work at VD coding website layouts, and sometimes I design layouts myself, though they don't compare to those ladies at VD. I also can't keep a girlfriend for very long. Longest = 8 months, shortest = 6 hours. Pretty sweet eh?


To D O
• Study for Everything
• Watch American Idol
• Go to sleep
• Shower
• Re-do LS Network
• Eat


W E B SITES
[main] • LS Network
[forum] • Virgin Designs Forum
[danni] • Dannik
[music] • DMR


QUOTE A T I O N
"The reason we exist is because we believe in our own existence, but does that mean that because we cannot see other life, that it doesn't exist. For that matter what is to say we don't exist at all?"
             -Anthropic Principle


W H I S P E R E D SONGS
Those little scars your soul gets over the years of your life may never heal, but sometimes those scars make us who we are. So maybe it's a good thing they are always with us...


LAYOUT I N F O
Okay so this layout was made maybe a couple months ago for someone else, but then its not in my life anymore so I decided to change it a little and use it for. I used multiple brushes, majority that I lost after formatting, but my favourite would be the butterfly on in the background, also lost. The title was made using a font, cutting it out of the black rectangle and then erase brushing the hell out of it.

The layout itself features Kira and Lacus (my favourite gundam see couple). It fits me perfectly because, their love isn't really there so much as a spot to fill the void left by those they have lost. Makes me feel warm and fuzzy. Not.


C U R R E N T DESKTOP
Kira x Lacus // Gundam SEED Destiny

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01/31/2007: "I forgot this was here"

music: Hirano Aya - God Knows...
 mood: Indifferent

What is existence? Do we really exist in this space we call the universe? Isn't it true that we believe we exist because its what we want, existence. But to be honest did we really exist before rational thought, before we were aware that we ourselves were here, where we are now. Even a hundred years ago the universe didn't exist, it wasn't known, therefore it didn't exist. But we were there, so then if we exist before we knew we existed, who was there to make us exist? The world we live in, we believed it existed for billions of years. But what happens if today was the first day it actually existed and that it, we, everything was just created to be like nothing has changed, that everything we believe has existed for ever. And that when whomever, whatever is through with this world, it will just be created a new and we would cease to exist... Do we truely exist or is it just a fantasy we would all like the believe?

Do we have control over our destiny? If we only exist because one believes in this world today then our destiny was never there to begin with. Our destiny was chosen and we have no choice but to follow it even though we think we are chosing our own. Its programmed in us, the choices, yet they seem like we just thought of them. If we were just created today then we didn't even start our own destiny, we were thrown in it. Can we truely say we are flesh and blood and not just a strange dream someone is having; if they woke up suddenly or blinked would we be gone?

For ourselves we truely can't say we do exist because thats what we are lead to believe, what humans know exist in their hearts that as long as we are here and its out there and we see it, its there. We would never see the beginning and never the end and space is just something made up to deal with the emptiness we all feel. Maybe some of us have realized it those to crazy to be considered sane, maybe they see what we can't, understand what we refuse to acknowledge.

But who is this, what is this that makes us exist for this moment in time? It could be a person, whose very happiness keeps us here and their sadness, their bordem is what changes it to what they believe, and do this without their knowing. Whats to say that that person who is doing this subconsciously is a god in the sense we make it. They can change fate, choose what they want, create what they want and everything they want happens. Are we forced to do what we want, meet the people we think are our friends, the knowledge we acquire. That social classes exist, different races exist because someone needed diversity, that one thing looking the same is just too boring. Maybe its just a god with no physical body, no one knows for sure.

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