//Organized Chaos ~ [False Love]

Organized ^{C H A O S}
Welcome to Organized Chaos, a blog with all of my random, dumb, pointless thoughts. Here you can get the satisfaction that maybe your life is 100% better. I named it "Organized Chaos" because it pretty much explains my life. Nothing is in order, but it always seems to organize itself into something workable. Also, I tend to get angry easily, so expect a lot of rants! :3

^{A B O U T} Me
Alright, so what do you want to know about me? Well my first name is Keenan. Irish Gaelic for little ancient one, a young ruler. I'm offically 19 years of age, which in Canada or atleast in my province is legal drinking age. WOOT. I know, not really the exciting. I don't really get mad at anyone, in fact, only one of my friends has ever seen me mad and refuses to let me be mad again. So it must be bad, but I don't remember it. Weird? See I get even, no made or sad, I make people suffer ten times worse if not more. K, so remember that :3 ! I work at VD coding website layouts, and sometimes I design layouts myself, though they don't compare to those ladies at VD. I also can't keep a girlfriend for very long. Longest = 8 months, shortest = 6 hours. Pretty sweet eh?

To ^{D O}
• Study for Everything
• ~~Watch American Idol~~
• Go to sleep
• Shower
• ~~Re-do LS Network~~
• ~~Eat~~

^{W E B} SITES
[main] • LS Network
[forum] • Virgin Designs Forum
[danni] • Dannik
[music] • DMR

QUOTE ^{A T I O N}
"The reason we exist is because we believe in our own existence, but does that mean that because we cannot see other life, that it doesn't exist. For that matter what is to say we don't exist at all?"
-Anthropic Principle

^{W H I S P E R E D} SONGS
Those little scars your soul gets over the years of your life may never heal, but sometimes those scars make us who we are. So maybe it's a good thing they are always with us...

LAYOUT ^{I N F O}
Okay so this layout was made maybe a couple months ago for someone else, but then its not in my life anymore so I decided to change it a little and use it for. I used multiple brushes, majority that I lost after formatting, but my favourite would be the butterfly on in the background, also lost. The title was made using a font, cutting it out of the black rectangle and then erase brushing the hell out of it.

The layout itself features Kira and Lacus (my favourite gundam see couple). It fits me perfectly because, their love isn't really there so much as a spot to fill the void left by those they have lost. Makes me feel warm and fuzzy. Not.

^{C U R R E N T} DESKTOP
Kira x Lacus // Gundam SEED Destiny

Is it true?

music: Jewel - Standing Still
mood: Not So Happy

Is it true what they say "Its better to have loved and lost than to never have loved before?" Many people will argue the yes, but then there are those that argue the no. But the answer itself lies within thy self. No one can tell you what to feel, its up to you.

For my, I've done more "lost" than "love" and I must say I prefer to say that this saying is quite false. Love does feel wonderful when you're in it, but afterwards, the pain, heartache, tears, hatred, the sense of loneliness, or anything else you could possibly feel is unbearable. Love hurts, it destroys many hearts in a year. This feeling of loneliness, and heartache would never be there in the first place if you never loved at all. You would be fine with yourself. You may long for another, but that feeling will pass at time.

Friends, family is where its at. Without those, who are you really? Family makes you who you are even if family hasn't been the nicest thing to you. You wouldn't be you without it. Sure outside influences help, but its family that matters the most.

If you find that endless love, keep it and hopefully you will never have to feel this pain. But if you don't, you know what I'm trying to get at.

Keenan whispered on 02.05.07
@ 09:09 PM PST [No Love]

Life... Or Something Like It

music: Gundam SEED - Shinjirareba Koso
mood: Neutral/Slightly sad side

Life, existence, it all has different meaning to people. Some live to see another day, fight another fight. Some live for the future, some live for grades, metals, honor, money, and some live to find that certain someone.

When they find that certain someone, it all changes. It you may ask? It in general, the sense, everything around you, your life, dreams, hopes, tears, ambitions and love, it all changes. You no longer dream of who you may find or what he/she will look like, but you know how you want them to think, feel and love. You want them to understand you, you want them to laugh at things that may seem hurtful to others, or even cry for you in time of sadness. You remain the same, but your whole though process changes, the thought of them makes you smile, their tears make you cry. You are, in a sense, connected to them, not just physically, emotionally, or even mentally.

This connection is much deeper, different and very hard to break. When you aren't with them you can feel their sadness, you almost know what they are thinking. This connect is called Love. Love can stretch through time, existence, matter, and death. This love is different than anything anyone has ever felt.

Love in a sense can be betrayed, broken. But if you, if he/she really loves you, you can fight through it. Keep going. Love is about forgiveness, no matter how bad it is, if they love you and if you TRULY love them you can fight through anything. Its an endless bond that even if separated will never go away....

Keenan whispered on 02.05.07
@ 05:29 PM PST [No Love]