Organized ^{C H A O S}
Welcome to Organized Chaos, a blog with all of my random, dumb, pointless thoughts. Here you can get the satisfaction that maybe your life is 100% better. I named it "Organized Chaos" because it pretty much explains my life. Nothing is in order, but it always seems to organize itself into something workable. Also, I tend to get angry easily, so expect a lot of rants! :3


^{A B O U T} Me
Alright, so what do you want to know about me? Well my first name is Keenan. Irish Gaelic for little ancient one, a young ruler. I'm offically 19 years of age, which in Canada or atleast in my province is legal drinking age. WOOT. I know, not really the exciting. I don't really get mad at anyone, in fact, only one of my friends has ever seen me mad and refuses to let me be mad again. So it must be bad, but I don't remember it. Weird? See I get even, no made or sad, I make people suffer ten times worse if not more. K, so remember that :3 ! I work at VD coding website layouts, and sometimes I design layouts myself, though they don't compare to those ladies at VD. I also can't keep a girlfriend for very long. Longest = 8 months, shortest = 6 hours. Pretty sweet eh?


To ^{D O}
• Study for Everything
• Watch American Idol
• Go to sleep
• Shower
• Re-do LS Network
• Eat


^{W E B} SITES
[main] • LS Network
[forum] • Virgin Designs Forum
[danni] • Dannik
[music] • DMR


QUOTE ^{A T I O N}
"The reason we exist is because we believe in our own existence, but does that mean that because we cannot see other life, that it doesn't exist. For that matter what is to say we don't exist at all?"
             -Anthropic Principle


^{W H I S P E R E D} SONGS
Those little scars your soul gets over the years of your life may never heal, but sometimes those scars make us who we are. So maybe it's a good thing they are always with us...


LAYOUT ^{I N F O}
Okay so this layout was made maybe a couple months ago for someone else, but then its not in my life anymore so I decided to change it a little and use it for. I used multiple brushes, majority that I lost after formatting, but my favourite would be the butterfly on in the background, also lost. The title was made using a font, cutting it out of the black rectangle and then erase brushing the hell out of it.

The layout itself features Kira and Lacus (my favourite gundam see couple). It fits me perfectly because, their love isn't really there so much as a spot to fill the void left by those they have lost. Makes me feel warm and fuzzy. Not.


^{C U R R E N T} DESKTOP

Life is life

music: Anastasia - At The Beginning
mood: Optimistic

Life is what makes us who we are, without these feelings, emotions, sadness, happiness we would have no idea who and what we are as an individual. These scars, these reminders tell us not what to do, to never do it again, and try something new. Life is life, an experience of a life time that you only get to experience once. So take it one day at a time, don’t worry about the future, just do what makes you happy at the time. You may frown upon it later, but then you don’t always have to like your choices, its just what you wanted to do at a time.

Just walk down that road, and never look back, keep your head up and forward and face every day with a smile. Never frown, though days may kick you down, people may kick you down, there are those out there that care and are smiling for you. Keep everything you seen, learned, heard, experienced and use it as a weapon, a tool to the future.

Keenan whispered on 03.22.07
@ 04:13 PM PST [No Love]

A little to someone...

music: Rie Fu - I Wanna Go To A Place...
mood: Tired of existence...

"How dan dan! How are you, I'm sitting here going through all my old folders on my harddrive. We have really know each other for a long time eh? Since grade 9 to be exact (or atleast thats how far back my records go) and I've found some of the first layouts I ever made, and for some strange reason they have your name on them. Do you remember them? I do! AHAHA so long ago to me, yet it really isn't. I was going through everything, I found saved threads from AF, msn conversations with everyone. Kind of made me sad that I don't keep in touch with anyone anymore, not even you! Sitting here I remember when I made that "Stumbing In" icon for AF listening to Great Big Sea, and you telling me you never heard them before. So I sent you their music. I wonder if you still have them. BLAH! Who knows. It was so long ago. I remember when you had dannik.tk, and you had music playing, so I had to copy you and have music. I found all these old blog layouts. Even one from /Makoto on your server. I found an old DN Angel one I made for you, and old FF8, Naruto. And you know what they all had in common with each other, but not with yours? Mine were shitty and yours were good. I think you were just humoring me by telling me they were good! Ahahaha, man the good old days, just early teens, not knowing whats going to happen, not caring where we are going to be. Those days. Kinda makes you think doesn't it. I found some weird stuff, some cool stuff, stuff that pisses me off. No wonder I was never able to delete this stuff, its my memories of all my AF friends. Sorry I'm blabbing, I hope you don't mind, I don't think you will! I hope not :p Ah Great Big Sea, remember who I always made you listen to it :p Sorry I was so pushy and so HYPER then. I've kind of mellowed a little, but I hope I'm still the same funny guy. I just found how cynical I got after Kazha broke up with me. You were there for me! Thank you! My lifes kind of taken and turn, lots of drops, pick ups, stabs to the heart, but I'm still hanging in. I wonder how you are doing? Maybe you will respond to this. It doesn't really matter. I just really need someone to talk to ya know, I don't talk about whats wrong with me, whats making me up set, whats made my day, whats my new addiction. You were always there with that, thank you btw! So maybe we can't get on at the same time on msn to talk to one another, we are simply RETARDED, cause you can still email! I'm really retarded. Going through all this stuff has made me cry. I'm such a baby. Fuck sakes, sorry :p Wow I really typed a lot. You probably won't even read this, which is fine! No worries if you don't. I just started reflecting a lot. I've gotten a lot stronger over the years, different, changed, good, for worse who knows right?

Its good to see VD open again. You know I would have gladly taken over if I wasn't so busy with life, which kind of sucks you know. Life kind of has a way of kicking me down. I found this one txt file you sent me back in the day that says you didn't know your place in the world, that people are there for you, and you have no idea. Well I've gotten to that point now. Sorry I just need someone, or something to unload everything on my chest, its built up for so long... Hope you don't mind. You can always close it and I can pretend you read it. BAH! Anyway, I'm just no longer happy with who I have turned out to be. Like I went wrong and one mistake just changes my who being forever. I just wish this pain would go away, wish I could be whole again, but I know it won't, not as long as I'm stuck in this city. I just wish to start somewhere where no one will ask about my past, who only knows the old me, who won't push about the little stuff and just like me for the me they know and not the me that I know. It would make me feel so much better. I feel dead inside. Some days I don't, some days I do, some are inbetween. I can only distract myself for so long. I just keep questioning my character when I was so sure of what it was, it just changes, I want it to go back... I just know it never will.

Anyway, I hope to hear from you!"

Keenan whispered on 03.20.07
@ 12:58 AM PST [4 shattered pieces]

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